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I laid off this blog because I didn't know, really, how to express my feelings about my family. And I didn't even feel like I was failing to express them in an interesting way.

It was really just depressing me.
It still is.

My aunt went into the hospital suddenly last night (she's okay now, just scared everyone), my mom refused to go see her, and mostly I just feel stuck a thousand miles away, powerless and frustrated.

I was so upset today, and I don't know if it's because I'm more worried about my aunt's health or disgusted with my mom's behavior. Compassion or pettiness.

Also I ordered some Chinese food Saturday night.

I don't call, I don't write

It's time to level with you.

You may have seen the signs.
It's been written all over my profile for weeks now.
I went back to my old blog.

I never should have left. I was a fool. I'm back, but this time it's not just for a year.

http://alifetimeofdubioussuccess.blogspot.com

mister

one of my favorite things about Brandon's family is their penchant for giving their cats ridiculous nicknames.

This is Taupey, who is taupe in color.

She is more often known as Crotchety Von Softness, so I'll let you guess about her personality and what her fur feels like.

I mean, how can you not love this guy.

Obama: South Side Is "My Kennebunkport'

home cookin

My grandmother and aunt like to buy little community-created cookbooks. The kind of thing where everyone in 4-H or a squaredance club or ladies auxiliary all contribute a dozen recipes apiece, then someone collects and organizes them, and out comes a cookbook.

I always find the titles delightful.

Disciples Delights II - recipes from the First Christian Church
Recipes You Can Bank On - from the bank where my aunt works
Recipes From The Heart - from Gainesville Memorial Hospital

dread and anticipation

I am dreading this visit to my family. Brandon is looking forward to it.

Brandon is dreading the visit to his family. I am looking forward to it.

I am--
WHY THE CONCEALED HANDGUN PERMITS???

ARE YOU SERIOUS??

WHY???

Can I ask why without Mom getting totally defensive?? Maybe I can get Brandon to ask casually? WHY did you file for SPECIAL PAPERWORK to carry a HIDDEN SMALL FIREARM?


Sigh. Okay.

Where are YOU going? Are you apprehensive? Excited? I know my cousin Roger can't wait to go to the East coast and figure out if he wants to quite law school (warning: if you follow that link, shield your eyes from the color scheme, it is truly jarring). And I mean, well, THAT's exciting.

What about other people? I gotta set up some polls. Maybe you'll even vote on them. That would be great.

In the meantime as I continue my spiral of self-doubt ...thanks everyone for reading.

questions the night before a weekend in Texas

1. Is this going to suck?

2. Why did my mom and stepdad get concealed handgun permits?

3. Will seeing relatives I haven't seen in a long time get us any more wedding presents?